This room is for Villanelle & Buffy Summers

I do get the sense that they are starting to realize that I'm not with them. I'm sensing quite a bit of resentment towards me which is worrying.

Its because we keep winning, but the truth is I only started going nuts and winning when I felt in danger. I didn’t want a target this entire game. But now we can’t stop or we’re gone.

Yeah I agree. I feel like this happens to me all the time in games to be honest lol.

I hope you or Aaron can pull of winning HOH tomorrow. It's definitely possible, there's not many other players who seem to be able to win challenges all that consistently.

I pray because if we don’t, I’m a goner lmao

Thank god this isn't Survivor lol.

Now Daenerys is talking to me trying to be nice and ask info about that Ladies alliance. I’m irritated.

Oh man lol. Let me know if any other crazy stuff comes up lmao. The fact there's so many people against you, it's all the more reason to be aligned with you to be honest. I don't think these people realize that. Why would I side with the group that clearly has more numbers.

I'm super sleepy, I'll message you tomorrow with some ideas and thoughts I have going forward. I'm glad we all can actually win challenges too. Imagine if we sucked at them? lol

Or rather I meant to say, why would I side with the group where I would be really low on their totem pole. lol. I'm being treated like an idiot.

I am absolutely confused. I’ve been nice to Daenerys, but never told her we were final two and she literally just said “what happened to me and you til the end?” What!? I was nice but we barely talked game. Just encouraging words. And I’m not gonna say anything about you or knowing she even talked shit about me because she’s a ready to pop right now.

This might be overkill because you, me and aaron already kind of spoke about all of this already, but I just really wanted to lay out all of my thoughts to you because I know there’s a lot of paranoia in this game and I know it’s extremely difficult to know anything 100% on who is where and what is what. Mainly because everyone is so shady and clearly willing to say just just about anything to get them farther in the game.

But for the sake of trying to be as transparent with you, and to show you that I’m not being easily swayed by others. I know it’s probably something you are nervous about. I don’t want you to be too anxious about what people are saying to me, so I’ll explain my thoughts on what they're saying and why these things aren’t swaying me to try to bring you some peace of mind.

It’s very clear that almost the entire cast is against you and Aaron. And obviously, the three of us have shown we are very capable of winning challenges. It’s clearly a no brainer that we would all be better off working together. It feels very obvious that if I were to side with the people who are against you, I’m going to be on bottom with them. I would clearly be used and discarded once they have no need for me anymore. Once they successfully get you and Aaron out of the game, they would have no use for me anymore. To me that feels what the obvious outcome would be if I were to work with them and why I would rather work with you.

When Aaron won the endurance HOH challenge, I started to get nervous that whole day leading up to the deadline for nominations. It just felt like something was off. Nobody in the entire cast was really talking to me much. When we were getting a little closer to the deadline for nominations. Aaron finally got around and told me he was nominating Natalie and Bob the Builder. Around that same time, Cameron reached out to me and just randomly, out of the blue asked me who I would have nominated if I had won HOH. It very much felt like she was digging for information, almost like she knew something was planned. It was so out of nowhere and it struck me as weird. My gut was telling me that I could be in trouble and I might be a backdoor target, so I made it my mission to win POV because it felt crucial to me.

I understand why you would have wanted to backdoor me, and I def don’t hold that against you and it’s not going to be something I’ll use as a reason not to work with you. If I was in your shoes, that would be a plan I’d consider too if I felt like someone was trying to go after me. It’s TOTALLY understandable. It’s another reason why I’m not taking much of what everyone is saying to me to heart at all. They are all talking to me as if this is some big truth bomb that will blow my mind lol. They are basically telling me things I already kind of knew in my gut. But it’s truly amazing how almost everyone is telling me about this plan and they don’t realize that it’s actually making me want to work with you more.

There’s a few things I’d like to get some clarity on. Is there a reason why you and Aaron haven’t mentioned Cameron to me at all about being one of your allies. From the looks of it, it seems obvious that she's someone who trusts you and is kind of loyal to you. She was also one of the big reasons why I got nervous about a possible plan against me with the weird timing of her not-so-subtle approach to dig for information from me. If she is someone that is close to you guys, I’m totally cool with it and it would ultimately be beneficial for us, no? I’m not sure, but I’m curious to know more about your connections with Cameron. One of the things that people have been saying to me over the last day was that she is someone who would always run and tell you guys information. Also, what is your relationship like with Spongebob? And also with Jim. Those 3 people were the only ones who didn’t throw you under the bus.

I’m also extremely confused by Kway. His presence when he was in the game confused me to no end lol. Was Kway low key an ally of yours? Because he seemed to be someone who was constantly planting seeds all over the place and these are seeds that would directly benefit you by keeping the target away from you and I would notice how almost every time he was on the block, you and Aaron would always want him to survive the eviction. I’m very mystified by him as a player. When he told me about the “Key 3” alliance, he mentioned that they were going to go after me. I’m not sure if that was a lie or not, but him saying that shows that he wanted me to go after them and not after you/aaron. I wasn’t planning on going after you two anyway, but it seemed like Kway was trying to plant a seed in my mind to manipulate me to not go after you guys for reasons unbeknownst to me. With all that said, it makes it hard for me to believe in the sincerity when you guys play up that Kway was someone that was dangerous for your games and someone that needs to go lol. Trust me when I say, I didn’t need Kway to say that stuff to me as a way for me to not go after you guys.

I genuinely want to work with you two for many reasons that I stated above. It would make the most sense for all of us. Everyone else just wants to use me and will dispose of me the first chance they get. By working with you guys, we can protect each other and we can make a real dent in that group of people playing in the middle that are throwing you under the bus. The fact I’m trying to write all of this out in extreme detail should show I really want to show that I want to trust you and work with you, otherwise I wouldn’t take the time to do this. I just want us to be fully transparent with each other. Because I’m kind of going out on a limb here by writing you all of this. But if we really want to work with each other I think this is a really good step so we’re all on the same page and we can be fully transparent. You’re one of the first people I talked to in this game and you really are a lot of fun to talk with. I’m being honest and open here, and I think we can really make a dent in this game.

I feel like I’m pissing people off by not really taking any of their pitches seriously. And it makes me extremely nervous. I really want to trust you and I’m taking a risk by typing all of this out to you because I don’t know if this would end up biting me in the ass, you know? I’m going to think about if I want to be quarantined before the HOH later. I’ll let you know.

Oof, sorry for how long this is.

I want you to know I’m reading and going to answer piece by piece so you don’t think I’m ignoring you lol. I just woke up so I will definitely tell you everything.

100% I would be floored if you answered everything so quickly lmao. I didn't realize what I wrote was so long.

"When Aaron won the endurance HOH challenge, I started to get nervous that whole day leading up to the deadline for nominations. It just felt like something was off. Nobody in the entire cast was really talking to me much. When we were getting a little closer to the deadline for nominations. Aaron finally got around and told me he was nominating Natalie and Bob the Builder. Around that same time, Cameron reached out to me and just randomly, out of the blue asked me who I would have nominated if I had won HOH. It very much felt like she was digging for information, almost like she knew something was planned. It was so out of nowhere and it struck me as weird. My gut was telling me that I could be in trouble and I might be a backdoor target, so I made it my mission to win POV because it felt crucial to me.

I understand why you would have wanted to backdoor me, and I def don’t hold that against you and it’s not going to be something I’ll use as a reason not to work with you. If I was in your shoes, that would be a plan I’d consider too if I felt like someone was trying to go after me. It’s TOTALLY understandable. It’s another reason why I’m not taking much of what everyone is saying to me to heart at all. They are all talking to me as if this is some big truth bomb that will blow my mind lol. They are basically telling me things I already kind of knew in my gut. But it’s truly amazing how almost everyone is telling me about this plan and they don’t realize that it’s actually making me want to work with you more."

When he won the endurance challenge, it was basically to keep me safe in this game because he knows people are after us both. We asked people who they wanted and the consensus was "bob and natalie". We were cool with that because I hate Natalie's game and Bob sketches me out BAD. You came up as an option if there was a renom because of how well you play. There was no planned attack against you. But I do take responsibility for saying your name even as a possibility. I just want you to know it wasn't an actual PLAN to backdoor you. You're the only other person who wins lol. I don't want you to think I'm dishonest. The only person I've been loyal to is Aaron. And I want to build that trust with you too.

"There’s a few things I’d like to get some clarity on. Is there a reason why you and Aaron haven’t mentioned Cameron to me at all about being one of your allies. From the looks of it, it seems obvious that she's someone who trusts you and is kind of loyal to you. She was also one of the big reasons why I got nervous about a possible plan against me with the weird timing of her not-so-subtle approach to dig for information from me. If she is someone that is close to you guys, I’m totally cool with it and it would ultimately be beneficial for us, no? I’m not sure, but I’m curious to know more about your connections with Cameron. One of the things that people have been saying to me over the last day was that she is someone who would always run and tell you guys information. Also, what is your relationship like with Spongebob? And also with Jim. Those 3 people were the only ones who didn’t throw you under the bus."

Aaron and I actually thought Cameron was against us lmao. She asks a lot of questions, makes us laugh and then disappears. There's never been a problem, but I didn't view her as an actual ally and I know Aaron liked her far less lol. Cameron never gave information to me. She just aggregated it, I guess lmao. As far as Spongebob and Jim go, they are both very nice to me, but I know they are more with Aaron. Jim sometimes makes me worry, but I really like him.