Whew chile. This night was a MESS. I always wondered why Tyler refused to throw Celine on the block and I had a suspicion he was close to her but chile after he told me she knew about his double vote, I was ready to cuss his ass out! Like sir you deadass right now?? I know he's got other allies, and that's fine bc I do too but to tell regular ass allies about your power?? I had to take a little breather from the forum atp because I felt like damn, I just snaked two people Im close to ( Layla and Susie) for you. Anyways we talked that situation out mostly in pm. Cz I know y'all nosy asses be reading the room and some stuff gotten stay hidden LOL. We had just made up when Celine was evicted and made her speech. Like JUST made up and her speech pissed me off all over again. Sis was telling the complete and whole truth and I was shook asf. It has to be the best evicted speech of the SERIES because she dragged all our asses lmaoooo. I was still pissed off at Tyler though. I was weighing between actually turning up on him or trying to play it cool. I decided to play it cool and ask question but it was clear my energy was off. We kinda talked about this in the room but it was mostly another pm convo lol. I realized then I was tripping. Like it was no longer just gameplay and I needed get it together. He thinks I've been distant with him since then, when honestly the truth is that I have a boo LMAOOO. I've been delivert from whatever emotional connections I had with him so it's kind of hard trying to keep up apperances. Up until a few days ago, every baby was real from me. Now it's like damn, If I stop he'll notice. Im hoping that me using my idol on him gets us out of this weird place.
Idol Play
After all the shit that has happened and my focus being on E*****, the game is less stressful for me. Like before it felt like do or die to win this season. And chile, I still want to win but it's literally not my main focus as of now. I'm dealing with *possibly* having the rona (A sis gets tested Tuesday) and being in the honey moon stage with someone lol. This last week has been so hard on me, that I really would rather lose and be in jury than play without Tyler. Right now Im just lacking the drive to really decide to take control of the game on my own. In a way im dependent on him. My game revolves around him now. When Daphne told me he was going up and he also told me she basically told him that, I knew then that I was using my idol on him. I know that today I could be chilling, knowing I would be safe regardless, but I feel at peace with my decision. It's me and him....with AOC until the very end lol. My dream final 3 is him, me, and AOC. I would take AOC if it was up to me in case anyone was wondering.
Subject: Re: Dairy Room Entries 
Get outta here!