Thoughts

I’m going to be writing my thoughts under this thread. Last season I didn’t really do a lot of Drs but I think I’ll have more to say this time and I need those coins too lmfao

So far it’s been wild omg I tried to talk to almost 90% of the cast. Like my fingers are literally hurting damn. I’ve lost track oh how many people I told they were good with me which is not usually my style of playing but there are a million people on this cast so I need to keep my booty safe. I’ve agreed to be in like 3 rooms with 3 different groups on day one lord help me. It’s 3000 dollars so I’m not going to trust if someone tells me the time. I know they’re all going to be lying through their teeth. That BGC alliance lmfao I give it 3 days before it falls apart LOL The only people I remotely feel good with are Carter and Leyla. Everyone else still has a big question mark. I’m just trying to see how everything plays out. I came clean to Heather about putting her name down as someone I want to go. Hopefully she appreciates the honesty. I waited till after noms to tell just Incase she doesn’t care about honesty lmfao

Also just wanted to remind y’all about the room I requested. Never done it before so I don’t know if I did it right lol thank you <3

So Day 2 and I didn’t go up. We absolutely love to see it! That whole vote reveal this morning had me shooketh. It worked in my favor because I didn’t vote Alycia. The only issue is that there’s a rat that keeps name dropping me. Last season I played a good utr game and this season I can’t afford to be in the spotlight. These people would nominate you for the most random reasons and we can’t have that.

My thumbs still hurt because it’s a struggle messaging all these people but I need to do it because anyone can win HOH. I need my booty safe! Still like my girls Carter and Layla. Carter is a social butterfly, I peeped that but we’ll see how things play out. Sandra I actually like but I know she’s PLAYING hunny! She’s out here and I know it. She’s using humor to rope people in. Blair confuses me and doesn’t make any effort even when she was on the block. Reminds me of Lauren from last season. Comp beast Alycia scares me but I don’t think she’s an immediate threat to me. Hayleigh, Tinashe and Chloe may have something going. Also I know there’s definitely a boys alliance. This game is insane already but I’m so happy to still be here. I need to not suck at comps this season. I’ve embarrassed myself enough LMAOO Arisa go easy with these comps damn some of us are new to this online game thing

So day 3 and somehow I’m still safe. WHEW. We’re on the 5th alliance now. Chile a whole mess. None of them are solid. They are all shaky AF. It’s scramble city out here. Everyone is so intertwined. I’ve seen a couple repeat faces in these alliances and we just act like it’s normal and don’t speak about it LMFAOOO What is this season. Everything is so damn messy and I really don’t like playing messy because it never helps anyone’s long term game. I would rather have 1 solid alliance and then have solid individual relationships to avoid going up. All these multiple alliances actually puts a strain on my individual relationships with these people. Plus I’m stuck with some people I would have loved to nominate if I could somehow win a DAMN comp

I’m stressing tf out. This vote is going to come out a mess tomorrow again. The votes have been going the way I hoped but then I have to act shocked and horrified LMFAOOO... anyway I really love playing this game so much. It’s literally becoming one of my favorite things to do.

Okay this time I’m actually shocked by the votes WTF I wish I voted heather and made it a three way tie. I kept wanting to vote heather. I was so uneasy about the vote. Damn! I really didn’t want Idris to leave. I know he was in with the boys and good with a couple of the girls but I see heather putting me up first before Idris would have ugh

ARISA are you happy?! You’ve destroyed my game with your comp LMFAOOO I don’t know what I was thinking. I should have thrown it. Just like AOC. I peeped that her ass is throwing comps. She reminds me of Liza from last season. If she’s Liza OMG I need her ass out ASAP I really hope I’m wrong. I don’t even know how I’m going to do damage control. That was such a dumpster fire I could cry. They are going to target me, Layla and Carter now. Arisa why did you do this to me. I suck at comps and the only thing I had going for me just went up in flames tonight. I can’t believe I was such a dumbass not to throw that comp. I was just scared that someone random like Carly would win. Wait Carly is not random. She’s clearly aligned with Tinashe, Hayleigh, Penny... possibly Michael and even Aang. I think I should go pack my bags because i won’t know how I’m going to recover from tonight

So you know that saying “be careful what you wish for because you just might get it” that’s me right now I wanted this HOH and I got it and now my game is even worse off than it was yesterday. It’s crazy that I’m being dragged and called a fraud. Last season me is watching like girl get your life LMFAOOO. I don’t like messy gameplay and i hate being in this situation. I just need to figure out how I can comeback from this. I just hope Tinashe and her bestie Chloe can get evicted. Even with that I’m not naive enough to think the threat goes with them. I know they have people remaining that would try to target me to get revenge for them. They have a tight knit group that I wanted to break. Maybe the timing of breaking it was wrong idk ugh I’m going to do some damage control depending on how these votes go

Whew! First can we acknowledge that I won a speed comp!!! Like I’m so proud of myself. That’s literally my first real HOH in two seasons. I felt like the other ones were a Fluke... Now the problem is I have two HOH wins and that just increased the already ginormous target I had on my back. Why is my HOH always a drama magnet like I’m tired. I played such an utr game last season and this season I’m literally constantly in the spotlight. I hate it. Anyway I’m also lowkey happy that my HOH split the house. I was annoyed that everyone was morphing into one and I wasn’t sure what that meant for me in this game. Now there are two sides and I made them start trimming that side that has been controlling the votes.

Blair is someone I’ve grown to really like. My concern is that she’s throwing comps and could be lowkey playing me. Sandra is everyone’s bestie. Her social game is scary af. We’ll see how that plays out. This new Avengers alliance really has a good vibe to it but I’m not naive to be entirely comfortable.