Week 10

Girl... I’m watching the movie Arisa told us to watch and the acting is SOOOO BAD
It’s almost as bad as Sunrise In Heaven, definitely worse than Riding Faith

It was better than I thought overall tho.
I actually even enjoyed it a little bit lol
The plot was not bad, and the mom carried it.
Her boyfriend was also easy on the eyes so that helped too 

I really like Marianne on a personal level, and I think SHE trusts ME, but I don't trust HER.
Cuz if she can be buddy buddy with Layla and KeKe and put them up the second she gets the chance, she would do that to me too.
I see her as an opportunist, and I don't wanna work with someone like that.

Last night was peaceful, I think tonight will be peaceful too.
Except, tonight I'm presented with a choice of voting out either Blair or Marianne, both of whom I'm perfectly good with.
Voting out Aang was a no-brainer yesterday, Blair vs Marianne isn't that simple.

Also, Marianne saying that the nominations are homophobic???
I mean I'm literally gay and I'm always the one to pick up on implicit bias and stuff like that, but like...
Are you racist, Marianne? Cuz you nominated KeKe and Layla when you were HOH???
No, right? We have no reason to believe Tyler's homophobic either, jesus christ...

Oh wait, let me take that back real quick lmao
I think she said homophobic as in like... Terrible lol
Some people on stan twitter use "homophobic" as in like bad in general lol
My bad lmao

I really feel that this season, I'm really playing the game that I usually play in BB games on Discord.
Throwing every single competition, focusing on my social game, riding the middle, being in a big alliance, surrounding myself with comp threats as shields, being good with literally everyone in the house.
THIS is the game that I usually play, not the game I played on BBQ1 or BBQ3.
Both on BBQ1 and BBQ3, I was FORCED to start winning competitions to survive early on in the game. 
This time, I haven't been exposed, and I've positioned myself really well in the game so I don't have to do that.

So, Tyler just told me people are telling him to put me up???
I'm so confused and mad right now, like WTF did I do???
Seriously...

Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez wrote:

Also, Marianne saying that the nominations are homophobic???
I mean I'm literally gay and I'm always the one to pick up on implicit bias and stuff like that, but like...
Are you racist, Marianne? Cuz you nominated KeKe and Layla when you were HOH???
No, right? We have no reason to believe Tyler's homophobic either, jesus christ...

Skssk I was like wut???? when I saw that

I'm sorry Arisa, for being the last one to vote...
It's just... My #1 is Carter and I also really liked Percy on a personal level so I just felt really stuck.
This was one of the hardest decisions to make and I feel so bad cuz I love Percy on a personal level.
But like, dude you're literally openly targeting my ride or die...
You had to go, I'm so sorry...

I just wish Percy wasn't targeting Carter...
Then I could've kept him, ugh, this sucks...

Ugh, I regret feeling bad for that motherfuc*er, seriously.
Like dude, I get that you felt like I was loyal to you, and I'm sorry but I've never made it official that we were a final 2 or anything like that.
And I genuinely liked you, but there is such a thing as a time when I can't keep you because of things that you've said and done.

Now I wish I lied to him and told him I was keeping him just so that he won't try to expose me...
But it's too late now...
Ugh I hate this, I am so done...

Or I could've actually voted to keep him, but I couldn't do that when I knew he was coming for Carter.
I just couldn't.

Ugh, I wish I at least lied to him tho... But I couldn't cuz I felt bad for him.
I thought the least I could do was just not say anything. I hate this.

Ugh, I really should've just lied to him and told him that I was keeping him...
But I didn't have it in me to do that cuz I genuinely liked him.
Now I seriously regret it. F*ck him.
What hurts the most is that I KNEW this could happen from past experiences.
Momo did this same exact thing but worse, and I knew it was possible.
But I didn't manage him well.
And I regret it, but it's too late now.

This thread is sending me

You: I'm playing the middle PERFECTLY
you and hour later: OMG PPL TRYING TO GET ME NOMINATED??

You: omg I love percy I feel so bad voting him out 
You an hour later: PERCY THAT MOTHERFUCKER