7/22

I can't tell if they just don't wanna be put up by me if I win the HOH or not, but I feel like everyone's starting to talk to me more.
Maybe they wanna take me to the final 2... I've been trying to set myself up as a final 2 goat, and maybe that's working.

Yeah, Carly is sort of trying to propose like a final 2 deal with me right now...
I don't know how serious I can take this since she voted me out when I was on the block, but there's no need to say no, always say yes lmao
If she's willing to keep me safe, there's no need to say no. You never know when that might end up saving your life.
I think my strategy of setting myself up as the goat everybody wants to take to the final 2 is working.

I still don't know if she's being genuine or not tho...
But I'm leaning towards genuine cuz it does make sense for her to wanna take me to the final 2.
Besides Haleigh and Billie, I'm the only person she could hypothetically beat.
And I've been consistently talking to her, so it does make perfect sense.

Honestly, I am feeling uncertain tho cuz all the powers are in play.
This game would be so much easier right now if all the powers just disappeared. 
Someone has an immunity idol, and someone else has the quarantine power too.
So there will definitely be situations where the HOH will have to put up people they don't wanna put up.
I wanna make sure I won't be the one to fall victim to that.
So I have to kinda say yes to everything, kinda like what people do when they do improv.

FU*K.
Tyler winning the POV was the one thing that I didn't want to happen...

So apparently, Tyler is using the POV on Carter...
I love Carter but this is so unnecessary since she was safe anyways...
Ugh, this makes things unnecessarily awkward and complicated, I hate it.
Tyler seriously needs to go, for real... 
I still think Sandra is going home but ugh...
Now Tyler will try to save her and try to send Billie home...
Audrey and Tyler both need to go home, for real.

Well, at least now Tyler and Carter will be seen as a power duo lmao

Ugh, Carly should've known better to put Tyler up next to Sandra...
I literally tried to push for that but to no avail...
The only good thing about this is that there will be huge targets on Tyler and Carter moving forward

Sandra is seriously starting to annoy me at this point lmao
Like I do get that she's a quirky person... And I do find her funny...
But there is such a thing as being too much...
Like god, you don't ever shut up...

I really can't tell if Tyler is being truthful about this surgery thing...
If true, I really hope it'll go well and I care for him.
But I do find the timing a little bit suspicious...
Maybe he's starting to catch on to the fact that we're playing independently, and he could tell that since we're voting Sandra out?
Idk, this game is crazy and I don't know what and who I can trust.

Despite how annoying she can get sometimes, I do like Sandra as a person very much, so having to target Sandra indirectly through Carly sucked, but I had to do what I had to do.
I couldn’t just let the avengers steamroll.
Taking out Audrey or Tyler would’ve been too dirty of a move since I’m in an alliance with them, but I really don’t owe Sandra anything...
She had to go to weaken the avengers.

I literally have no idea wtf I'm supposed to do tomorrow.
I'm literally good with every single person in the house.
But I kinda promised Carly I'd use the DPOV on her, and I'm not sure if I'll be able to do that.
I'm literally stuck... I guess I'll just have to throw the HOH yet again...
But then I'll risk Carly going up on the block... 
Most likely since Billie and Haleigh aren't good at comps...
There are just too many fuc*ing things to consider, I feel like my head is gonna explode.

Stay strong <3

Arisa Cox wrote:

Stay strong <3

Thank you, queen <3
The game's never been this intense before.
I've competed in this game twice before, but it's never been THIS intense.
Swaggy's 3K literally changed the game.

I promise you, to the viewers who are from the outside looking in, this season might seem a little bit more boring than BBQ3, 2 and 1 but inside the house, it's so intense.
Everyone is playing SO hard.
Adding one more digit makes such a difference.