F*CK

This... Is literally one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my entire BBQ career...
I'm... I-... I am just speechless.
To the viewers and everyone else, it seems like the obvious thing to do is to keep Carter, but Carly and I also made a final 2 deal, and in the past couple of weeks Carly and I have really bonded...
Also, Carly is better at comps, her resume is not as good as Carter's and she doesn't have a relationship with Carter the way she does...
There are just so many things to think about... And apparently Audrey and Billie already voted, and I KNOW I'm the swing vote...
I-... Oh god, I literally don't know what I should do
My heart is telling me to keep Carter, but my brain is telling me to keep Carly

I literally feel like I’m about to have a panic attack right now, I’m literally sick...
I- I can’t do this But I have to

It's just a game sweetie - breathe! It'll be okay <3

Saoirse Ronan wrote:

It's just a game sweetie - breathe! It'll be okay <3

Thank you sis <3

You will be ok hun. Like Saoirse said, it's just a game.

Arisa Cox wrote:

You will be ok hun. Like Saoirse said, it's just a game.

Thank you!
Love you Arisa <3

This is like the definition of “Damned if I do, damned if I don’t”
Either way, it’s gonna make me feel like shit and I don’t wanna do this

I can't I can't... I literally cannot do this...
I literally feel like Sindy in BBCAN5 right now, I genuinely cannot do this, omfg...

My heart is telling me one thing, my brain is telling me another thing
This is so fucking hard...