12/30 dr

im upset at myself for missing 12/29 DR but loving that i got reggie's BBQ cash. my heart literally broke this morning waking up to find out that reggie was going home and had sent me their bbq cash. reggie really was my #1 and cartoon comrade. what happened with hilary? who the hell is she playing this game for and what place? > i would have used my extra vote on reggie. i feel like the people who arent nicki nick doja brenda and whoever else is with them need to FORM something but ugh im not going to push anyone to do anything. i cant believe that im trying to play dumb and im still being targeted and seen as a threat. literally how do you win in games these days? i'm damned if i do and damned if i don't. i feel like i'm already building this kind of comp beast w/ 2 POV wins and underdog storyline which isnt good because its still early in the game. i didnt want to build any sort of resume this early because its an excuse to get rid of me before i end up in a final 2. sighs. im going to need to start thinking about who is good at comps that i dont talk to as targets in future weeks - nick, brenda, doja are at the top of that list for me. anyway i guess theo is my new #1 i appreciate how much game she talks with me. and blossom too?????? if i get duped by blossom i am going to be so shocked lmfao who would dupe max the dog that hard by saying all that the house wants to BD you but i want you safe and want doja gone blah blah blah.