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ooooh blossom is getting on my last damn nerve

i want her to go tonight sooooooooo badly

theo acting different in PR. i’ll b monitoring that situation

i literally just want second place and the cash prize and i knowwwwwww that's gross but this game is for money and when money is introduced it's bound to affect gameplay

i feel like if there wasn't cash prize larger than most games i wouldve played a completely different game and probably went out earlier, fought more publicly, and owned up to my gameplay but irdc i'd rather have some money than $0 and if all it takes is to shut up and take orders why not do it lmao

i mean it's certainly no min. wage/hour dedicated to this game lmao but the fun i've had is priceless so idk i dont know why theo isnt seeing this clearly. if she goes to f3 with me and hilary, she's automatically going to win the game. there's no way hilary beats us out in the end and i can get that she'd be worried about me taking hilary but there's literally no way i could take hilary over her when she's saved me in this game w/ comp wins and hilary hasn't. plus hilary is 100% more likable than me lmao so i could lose to hilary still and i'd rather lose to theo than hilary

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh if i ever play another season i'm being such a different character

my hands are SWEATING

and shaking

having another coffee will make me more sweaty and shaky but i’m so tired???

ok best case scenario: i win veto
second best case: theo wins
third best case: hilary wins

3 vs 1

blossom goes

part 1 endurance: theo
part 2: max
part 3: doesn’t matter

f2: max and theo
and i get 1 pity vote from hilary if theo evicts her. 0 votes if i’m the one who evicts her

max: ~$100 and thrilled

im over if theo doesn’t beat blossom

i feel dirty trying to make a deal w/ blossom bc i sure as hell won't honor

i want f3 w/ me hilary theo
f2 me theo