This room is for DW & Pedro Aboud

Okay so I might as well throw everything out in the open (at least between us).

Yes, I have been socializing with people. I wanted to win the first HOH b/c the plan was just to nom two inactives and then get connnections b/c I knew I had a loud personality that would get targeted anyway so it just makes sense to at least have some security for a while.

I also won the PoV which I probably didn't even need to win and I blame my own ego for that. Again, people came to me and I figured I could have open communication.

Yeah I'm socializing with a lot of people but as you can tell from your conversations with people, people don't want me around in this game. There are a billion reasons why. I'm loud. I'm not the worst at challenges. I'm annoying. I'm social whoring. W/e. My biggest problem is I just don't stfu. Do I cross the line a lot? Probz. I'm working on it.

So I was pulled into this Big 10 alliance and I thought it would be good. I mean everyone in that group I get along with. Some people I've had many convos with, some people I haven't (like you). I meant what I said when I joined this game at first. You seemed to have a hilar sense of humor and I wanted to work with you but I always felt like I had the cold shoulder from you. I mean it was heartbreaking but I know that in a cast with 20+ people, it makes more sense to just stick with the massive group and ride it out until final 10 where we duke it out. It would beat the alternative of going at w/e round this is. I tried to make more convo with you but you were busy/had greener grasses/etc and I'm not going to blame you. At the end of the day I know it's a game and we all have diff strategies and anyone who tries to Boston Rob a huge crowd of clearly perceptive characters is just gonna have it blow up in their face (ex tonight). Say what you want, I know I was pretty lousy in that aspect but I never did have any intentions in blowing up the alliance for the reasons I said. And for me specifically I felt like I had a huge target on my back anyway. You seem like a smart person and know the game well (I mean you've watched BB7 a lot and some people havent lmao). How would it make sense for someone with a loud personality to blow up a mega alliance early on? It just doesnt. I never blew up the alliance. People ask me about it now and I'm not even sure I wanna list who was in it (though I'm sure everyone knows by now). Obviously I don't know who to trust b/c I've had so many people talk to me with different stories that conflict with each other. Yesterday I heard that I was on four diff people's radarz but Russell would not tell me who told them that. I mean I get it. Don't expose your game yadda yadda. But even after he was betrayed he still wouldnt tell me. And people have been acting really sketch all day.

So tl;dr I am an ass but I did not blow up this alliance. I had every intention of riding it out. I don't know whats going on even now and all I know is that after this round I basically have to win HOH to even have a shot at staying in this game. People have been approaching you. Clearly I'm not as socially connected as everyone else. I'm not saying we have to go become BFFs in this game but we can take it one day at a time. I can do you one favor, you do me one favor. If you do a second favor and feel like I'm not pulling my weight or being beneficial to you, feel free to cut me. I have been an open book in this game with the people I've spoken with the most and that's why I'm in this predicament now. Feel free to ask whatever you need to. Or not. I dont know anymore. The ball is in your court.

May I make one other suggestion or is it too late?

I just found out something and I reallly wanted to run it by you

Hey sorry I haven't had a chance to read everything yet bc I want to fully absorb it. 

What is your suggestion and what did you find it?

Okay so I am aware that Buffy is sending you messages about nominations. I don't know how your relationship with her is, so this is either going to be really stupid of me or meh at best. But I know that she's been trying to convince the HOH to target her enemies that she finds threatening.

Buffy/Aaron are in a showmance. They flirt w/ each other b/c they think they're actually the people they think they are. But the two of them have been digging up dirt on a lot of people. They're probably the more dangerous players b/c theyre not as OTT as I am. They are going to do whatever it takes to get themselves to the end. You have to see that they're a threat. Like I said though, I have no idea how you are with them and maybe you're closer to them than I think. But that is a power couple that we will have to consider taking out later down the line.

That's fine.

I don't think you had any intentions on offending anyone with your comments. you were just being funny but it is a delicate issue I guess. I mean its ironic coming from me but I legit thought Madison was a troll. In my eyes you're still pretty standup and im sorry it got misconstrued

Rofl I probably won’t get back in <3

I did wanna say I respect your game and I’m glad you took a shot at Aaron/Buffy. The whole pre-jury was happen when you did <3 good luck gurl

Just so you know if I get back in I really wanna work with you and help you finish what you started <3 let me know if you’re interested!

Hey I only didn't reply because I'm not sure if I'm allowed to but thank you so much! I want to work with you too if you come back! <3

I think you were right which is why I stopped talking! But I’m totally game now! I’m jogging now. I’ll get back with you after

Okay so here is where I stand.

I have nothing against you. Even during the game I fully respected your decisions. I know at the end of the day this is just a game, meant to pass time during this self-isolation. I know, this is all boring/cheesy. But I harbor no ill feelings against you and I think what you’ve done in this game has been great. You targeted Buffy/Aaron and even managed to flush out a lot of powers with your HOH. I don’t think it was a waste of an HOH. A ton of the pre-jurors were rooting for you and I think it says a lot about your character.

This upcoming round is going to be tricky since Aaron is immune. I know for a fact Buffy bought the DPOV just like I know for a fact Aaron has a power up his sleeve, probably an immunity. There is no way they had less posts than me when they had literally no sleep. I think it might be a good move to flush out these powers now. Let’s be real, they’re going to come after us anyway. I’m safe this round but I know I won’t be next time and I need your help to stay in the game. We can both win challenges and we need to make sure we can take control or else we will be out.

People mentioned you/Natalie and honestly I’m fine with that. I adore her so maybe we can work together and secure a voting bloc. We are going to need numbers against Aaron/Buffy. Now that they have won some more powers (I suspect Buffy has at least one more besides the DPOV), their former numbers might want to hide behind them again until the big targets are gone and the powers are used. I am still going to play nice around them but I have no idea where any of them stand so I’m not going to talk game to them until we know who we can trust going forward.

For this upcoming HOH, I’m immune. I was tempted to go flush the powers myself but one of my fears is that if I force them to use the DPOV, they might try to nominate you instead. I’m up for whatever you wanna do. Either way we need to secure the HOH and the POV today.

I hope I’m not coming off as super gamebotty btw. I’m certainly open to whatever suggestions you have. I just want you to know that I fully support you in this game and we need to take them out as soon as we can.

Omg huge congrats on making it back!! Thank you so much for this, it's not boring/cheesy lmao I really appreciate it. I have nothing against you either and I actually really like you as a person. Now that you're back, I think we have a second chance to really work together and get shit done. 

But yeah I have no doubt Aaron and Buffy both bought powers because there's no way they wouldn't have been the top 2 posters otherwise. So Aaron is immune and Buffy is too. I'm just pissed I couldn't win myself a power and stop them. No matter what though, if I win I will come for them or their allies whether it's just to flush powers out. 

Also, I love gamebots so no worries LMAO. I'm fully with you in this game too, we need each other. As you have seen, basically all my allies have been sent home and I'm just lucky to still be in the game. Natalie is really my only ally left, and I love her but she hasn't been able to win anything yet. If I have you to work with, a comp beast, I'm in a MUCH better position and I am so grateful for you.

Aw thanks haha. I’m glad we are able to be on the same page for once. Considering that they spent all night doing that challenge and coming in with less than me in the number of posts, I’m sure the DPOV was bought, and mathematically the only other prize Buffy could afford was the double vote. It’s not a guarantee she has it but I wouldn’t be surprised. But the main focus would be the DPOV which is so broken it’s not even funny. And Aaron most certainly bought an immunity. Not sure if it’s one for him or for someone else but considering he’d be using to waste an immunity on Buffy, I’m sure he will do whatever she wants anyway.

I’m thinking we need to win the HOH and POV because leaving one of them on the block (in this case Buffy) would make them paranoid enough to use the DPOV. I just don’t want them to save themselves with a regular veto because then they can save it for another time which is equally as annoying.

Haha I share the same sentiment about Natalie. I did mention something about her challenge prowess (or lack of) and Big T mentioned she’s been doing well in challenges. Not sure how accurate that is but maybe she will surprise us with a random victory. Not holding my breath on it but at least there’s a small chance.

The faster we get these powers out, the faster we can shake off everyone else’s fear. They’re going to want to stick with Aaron/Buffy to avoid the crossfire. But we need to take our shots now. I’ve been chatting with Buffy today and it seems like she’s trying to feel me out. I know I’m probably super sketchy to her. I know she doesn’t trust me, especially since I spooked her back in the round I was evicted, but I’m ready to turn the tables on her.

Is there anyone else we can count on at all or is everyone pretty much in her thrall? I’m still a bit paranoid from back then and not sure who is just going to report back to the lieutenant lol.

Dude so I’ve been chatting with Buffy and she wants me to believe the craziest things. She really thinks we should be trying to keep the more active players in (like her/Aaron/you) but that doesn’t make sense because if she really thought that, they wouldn’t have nominated you/Dany last eviction. Somethings up and I think they don’t trust me since I have immunity this round. We need to make sure we win tonight! I’m curious to see if Aaron uses her immunity idol on her though.

Ok we really need to win tonight because I know that's not true, they'll definitely be coming for me if they win. What sucks is I thought I could trust Jim and Villanelle along with Natalie, but I think they're actually playing both sides.