Lizzie's HOH Diary Catch-Up

What up Diary Room viewers!! It's been a minute. Time to catch you up on my game.

Since the second HOH I been a a whirl-wind of who I trust.

Anime room brought me reassurance in some relationship, and new players quickly appeared on my radar.

Since day 1 I was close with Saoirse, Cent, and Fat Thor. Two HOHs later, I still admire these people and would love to work with them, but Fat Thor is the only one who has never tested my trust. However, when Saoirse and Cent went silent on me for a couple days and then were revealed in domin8 I seriously questioned why I wasn't told. That being said, it's a blessing in disguise because Fessy drug them all down with Saoirse having to resort to save herself.

I also grew close to Plastique Tiara, someone I truly trusted in this game. However, she has gone silent since everything was revealed and if she is not voted out I don't think I could truly trust her again in this game.

Right now, I don't feel strong with anyone, but have kept casual convos going with the outsiders that I feel I gained trust from today through noms. Now... let me write a whole diary room post about Mr. Fessy...

THINGS I DON'T BELIEVE THAT HAS COME OUT OF FESSY'S BIG MOUTH:

1. He's not actually Fessy
2. The 8 people approached into starting Domin8
3. That Domin8 was not used for strategy or gameplay
4. That my name came out of someone's mouth as a replacement nom after the first veto
5. That the message after Stacia was evicted that said "I've only trusted one person completely in my dm's and they know who they are" was actually about anyone in particular. (Astrid for sure thought it was her, if not others)

I'm sorry Fessy but *claps* YOU *claps* NEED *claps* TO *claps* GO

Unless! Unless I can keep you around a couple days to keep creating an even BIGGER target on your back that I can hide behind. We will see my dude.

Also, I've gained a lot of respect for Astrid today.

Very similar to my respect for Eric, Bob, and others. We all know our day on the block may come, especially we someone you are not close with (or never talked to) is in power.

If feel my noms were point blank. They both were nominated because:
1. they were both revealed to be part of the 8 person alliance, real or not
2. I had never talked to either one of them, personally or in the social areas

I chose not to discuss noms with anyone, as my trust was broken and the main person who reached to me to talk was Fessy. If I gave Fessy anything he would have found a way to spin it.

I sent this message to both Ikea and Astrid after the noms were revealed:
I wanted to reach out personally.

I hope you can respect my decision to nominate you for eviction. It was not an easy decision by any means. I think everyone is questioning their trust in people at this point, and since you were part of the alliance mentioned yesterday and I have also never really spoken to you in this game I came to the decision to nominate you. Like I said in the nomination message, if the alliance was not a real thing and was all on Fessy, I’m really sorry I put you in this position. I hope he didn’t bring the game down for you by his actions.

Best of luck in the power of veto.


Astrid very kindly said she understood, stating that she had never really reached out to me because she had others she thought she could trust but learned that lesson the hard way.

Ikea criticized me for not letting her know before and said she could never respect a decision in which she ended up on the block, saying I should've have known the alliance was fake a no real threat to the game.

Now look who's scrambling, trying to create a thread to save herself in the kitchen.

I know I may find myself on the block in the near future, but too many players have shown nothing but respect to the HOH and strategic gameplay to not shown the same respect to others down the line. Unfortunately, that still did not save great players by Eric, but he lead by example and I hope to do the same.

At the end of the day, there is no one I trust and I will continue playing this game in the best way I can to get to the end while respecting others. I can be upset over backstabbing and lying, but it's a game and you have to respect decisions made by others to get themself farther.

Ok, so before Fessy leaves and I forget about the theories I had about him and why he’s playing the game the way he is I thought I would enter one last theory I had. 

I have a suspicion that Scottie could be playing as Fessy. The messy game play of spreading confusion is similar and Fessy was currently competing in the challenge. 

If it is Scottie, then here is a throwback from last summer when I ran into him in a bar in Chicago and fan-girlied a little. To add fuel to the flame, he was wearing a Fessy hat that night. 

If it’s not Scottie and just some random person, I’m excited to meet you after the game wraps! But if it is Scottie, my mind is #blown. Terrible game play my friend but I respect that you came in guns blazing. P.S. I never trusted you lol.