This room is for Cameron Van Buren & Pedro Aboud

Awww did you do that with everyone in the cast? I can’t wait to read it all!

I didn’t do a deep dive of every person but first impression of you went something like this...

Pedro...who even is this person? I googled him and got some Brazilian model. Why would someone choose him? He clearly is getting a lot of the girls attention, but I’m glad I reached out to him. He’s super cool and we’ve talked about everything but game which is cool. I think trust will definitely be there, but I hope it’s mutual. He seems very popular and can have a lot of options. I just hope our relationship is also highly valued.

Haha yep the entire cast. I think I did about two assessments early on and one final thoughts one. I was pretty spot on with some people which is hilarious in hindsight and then some people I was a little off on.

Here were my final thoughts about you (based on how I felt at the time xoxoxo):

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Cameron Van Buren: Cameron was one of the most hilariously paranoid alliance members I’ve ever met and the fact that I was a paranoid alliance member too meant that we were like two fat sisters trying to walk on one treadmill. I kept trying to figure her out and she kept refusing and it became one vicious cycle. I like her as a player and I can see her sneaking far into the game. She’s probably seen me experience a whole range gamut of emotion lol oops <3

As you can tell I was pretty light hearted about everything after my eviction. I mean there were some people I wanted to roll my eyes at but the next day I got over it and focused on finding some new cauliflower rice recipes <3

Well I’m glad I provided you a source of entertainment lol. I love the analogy. I think we so paranoid with each other because we developed a showmance (your words, not mine lol) where we could be honest and know that our paranoia wouldn’t of been scrutinized so heavily.

How were you trying to figure me out? And how did I keep refusing though? Lol

At the time I just didn’t know who to trust in the game. There had been so many people in the game, many of them lying for no reason lmao. So that’s why I would randomly have such weird mood swings in here, trying to see how consistent you were. It was a messy experiment though lmao and I was frustrated/relieved that you were shaping out to be genuine. I expected you to be the bad guy and you weren’t giving me that lmao. So I was happy you weren’t <3

Then of course once the evictees started rolling in, things started to make more sense and I knew you were solid

Lol. I guess I, glad my story checked out. I told you I had your back! Lol

What became clear to you once the evictees started rolling in? I wonder if BTB was surprised about his eviction...

rofl he mentioned he wasn’t surprised since he wasn’t really talking a lot in this game. He didn’t seem to worry too much. And in my DR I kept thinking he was a key player in some random alliance lmao. What a mess.

LMFAOOOOOOOO yea I didn’t get that at all from BTB lol.

Was there someone you we’re completely wrong about? This is so much fun. I didn’t expect you to do a deep dive analysis of us. I do a diary room about every day and how I’m feeling lol. The one I was on the block for was very emotionally driven lol

Yeah I told you, I had a very weak grasp of how everyone was playing. My main goals were to just build relationships with people and then work with the ones I felt were more genuine. But I have such an old fashioned way of playing. I didn’t realize that things would escalate so quickly. I expected it to be easygoing at least the first full week. I remember when I used to game, I was super ecstatic about doing whatever it took to get to the end and disregarding people’s emotions. I would make finals and I would have pissed off soooo many people. So I had to change my strategy and I started playing more clean (I mean, for a game filled with lies and deceit). I was just over pissing people off. And back then it wasn’t for money lmao. It was purely bragging rights, which made it worse.

I did a few analyses only, mostly because I always do a first impressions and then the second one was just me rambling out who was in the game because I had no idea how many players were left and I didn’t want anyone to sneak by as an inactive over people who should be in the game. And then I always end with a closing thoughts so people know where I stood with them. I found that I might not get along with someone on day 1 but midway through a game I enjoy them so I wanted to make sure to clarify that we ended on good terms. I expect confessionals to be snarky, sassy, or emotional so I don’t ever take any of those to heart. I’ve been around my fair share of crazies over the years who would say a lot of negative things to me over a game so something game related isn’t going to hurt my feelings. But I know some people do take them personally so I just have to take a moment to reiterate it’s all game and I can be buddies with them afterwards.

Yea. I know we’re no where near the end, but I look forward to decompressing everything. That is one thing that took me for a loop...the jabs and how it can be seen as very personal. I’m sure we will be able to look back at all of this with some laughter and memories.

Yea and the sad thing is that it’s easy to get wrapped up in the drama. I do feel like the fact the world is experiencing a real life lockdown makes this game feel more claustrophobic. At least in my experience, in previous games I can go hang out with friends or family instead, but since we are essentially confined to our homes, it does feel like we are stuck in the BB house lmao. So I think that makes this game feel more realistic. So people take things more personally.

How do you think we're going to take it? It definitely does feel like the Big Brother house. Think Pre-Jury is going to have a lot of feelings?

Honestly I think everyone will get over it. I don’t see anyone particularly taking it seriously. Pre-jury will probably stop caring about it within a few days. If anything, jurors might take it more personally since they’re the ones who have to vote for someone who isn’t them. And it’s hard to gauge who will take it harder than others. I think ideally we all want to assume we would be non-biased and not salty but it could happen. I guess it depends on the circumstances on your eviction. If someone is super cutthroat about it then it might not sit well. But even then, if it was done in a poor way, there is absolutely no reason to reward sloppy behavior lmao. So it’s a complicated issue.

Have you ever thought about applying to big brother? This seems like great practice. Especially once our jury starts to form. Atleast we have other things to worry about and interactions. Imagine just thinking about the game this whole time for like 3 months!? So much more respect to reality tv players.

Well I did apply remember? I went to the BB16 casting call.

I hear the real BB has a lot of downtime. Players get bored easily so they’re forced to talk game lol. But even then that could be too much of a liability.

Now I don’t think I would apply. My job might be a bit too conservative now and I don’t think going on BB would let me remain employed rofl. Plus I’m not all about that toxic BB fan community lol

You're right. I completely forgot. It's been a rough week lol.

Yea my job knows I love these shows, but my job flat out said I can't miss the month of August so no Big Brother dreams for me lol.