Diary Room Thoughts!

Night 1.

Wow! What a crazy experience and opportunity to be playing this game! This is my first time ever doing something like this, so ofcourse I needed some time to figure out how all of this works, but it's pretty simple. All I have been thinking about is who is behind the screen for some of these characters haha. Hopefully we could do like a zoom reveal at the end to talk game. I think that would be cool. Anyways, I got myself in a six person all women's alliance which is great. We needed to decide on who is going to be HOH, and I am definitely leaning towards giving my vote to Jim. He seemed really nice. Aaron is rubbing me the wrong way so I'm glad he isn't going to win it. I also really connected with Pedro which I DEFINITELY wasn't expected. I think it's clear that others are going to try and flirt with that character, but I think I am going to be the one that's successful. We have practically talked about everything but the game! Everyone is being nice and cute, but I'm sure it's going to be game on when those nominations are announced. I think I played this night really well and have placed myself in a good position. Let's see how this goes.

-CVB

Night 2.

Twist on twist on twist! I'm so excited to be playing this game, and I think I'm real solid with the girl gang alliance! Our HOHs were Jim and Pedro in a twist and it couldn't of worked out better for us, and I was tight with both of them so regardless of which room I was in, I knew I was going to be good. I will say, Pedro and I DEFINITELY have some type of fake showmance going on (it's a little hard to call it a showmance because you know...we're using fake characters haha) but I knew for sure I got him in my pocket when he asked me if I was in jeopardy for the vote. Have to keep milking that up. I have realized this is definitely going to be very fast paced. And the reality is that all six of the girl gang can't make it to final 2 nor win. I definitely want to explore Big T a bit more and see how she's doing. I also need to expand my circle and get to know other houseguests. I think I'm gonna build upon the "orgy" from the blue group. Seems like they wanna get down and dirty and I definitely don't mind that as well. Overall a solid night. Glad to have the opportunity.

-CVB

Night 3.

GIRL! This was the first time I was legit afraid. I didn't want to win this HOH, but I didn't want to put on such a bad showing. My gosh! Anyways, the most random people won HOH tonight! Villanelle and Aaron. The way my heart was racing! I spoke not one word to Villanelle and I barely engaged with Aaron in the kitchen. I went into full panic mode which now looking back was probably a bit sloppy, but I wanted to ensure that I made it another night. Luckily I wasn't targeted, and if anything it may of been great reaching out to Villanelle specifically because she wanted to work with me. I reached out to Russell scared and he assured me I was good as well as Pedro so I think I'm in a pretty good spot socially! Pedro and I's relationship is going really well. Again, another affirmation was his messaging me right after he won veto (yea I be looking at time stamps lol). The Girl Gang alliance again is very strong, but I want to keep up with Big T. I think she is the one that I will hold very tight in the group. I'm always reminded that six people can not win Big Brother, but this is great for me so far. Kind of a red alert was when this 10/11 person alliance was created all of a damn sudden AND I WASN'T IN IT!! I'm glad four of my girls, Pedro and Russell are a part of it, but anyone else is definitely on my radar. Today we also learned that UBG and Amy are both parents which means for me personally, I want them out pre-jury. How do you not give it to moms if they make it to the end? A parental relationship/bond is a strong one and were playing for actual money that I want! Who knew playing the social game would be so difficult. I had Girl Gang, Pedro independently, Pedro+Russell+whoever he chooses, and Villanelle. But that fat is starting to get cut, and I need to make sure I stay on as long as I can. Small props to myself for starting the Never Have I Ever topic in the kitchen. Created small engagement which I appreciated, and I don't think it came off desperate.

"We going for the kill or keeping it chill?"

I think for now, we're going to play it as chill as society right now because there ain't shit happening lol.

-CVB

Night 4.

"I think for now, we're going to play it as chill as society right now because there ain't shit happening lol"

Well call me Boo Boo the damn fool because bitch I'm on the block! I woke up today thinking one thing. I needed to win this HOH. Why? Because there is a fuckin 10 person alliance I know of that I am not aware of, and I need that to be broken up ASAP. Having that alliance means that the four girls in it have options, and that is NOT what I need. It also gives Pedro and Russell options as well and I don't need that either. This HOH. Arisa girl...this was MESSY! Especially knowing that Daenerys wanted me to lose can only mean one thing, she wants me up! Knowing that it was going to be a sabotage, I needed to figure something out to make sure not just that Daenerys doesn't win, but that someone I wanted DID win. I came up with this plan to get the misfits together which I deduced are Villanelle and the Bobs. If everyone was going to be placing wonky votes all over the place, all we needed was a small majority to stack it onto one person. UBG was selected simply because BTB already placed his tokens on her and she was better than Daenerys winning so bitch I followed suit and told Sponge to do the fuckin same. SHE WON! I dead ass screamed any everything. My plan actually worked. Now let me get to getting Kway and Daenerys...wait WHAT!? She fuckin forgot to submit her vote on time!! Meaning Russell wins. I got excited because I was close to him...or so I thought. Nominated me, called me out publicly, and practically told me to I want to lick you off...because I didn't give him my token when I said I would. Bitch why would I? You're in this majority that you're not telling me about! First veto comp I played in, and lost (Damn you Parasite!) so now I sit here on the block. A lot of people have been messaging me that they would like me to stay, but how can I even trust these people? How can I even trust this girls alliance? This could be my last entry as a contestant. This was fun and all, but honestly, I would never want to do another ORG again. These last couple of hours have been SUPER stressful. And I actually want to get on a whole show. I'm come to terms with my fate, and if this is my last night, then I am thankful that I went out the way I did. TRYING!!

-CVB

<3 stay strong

Night 5.

I'll bet anything that the tokens HOH isn't going to get played ever again because THIS has been A FUCKIN LOT!!!!!!

First things first YAY I'm still here! 13-1 vote to keep me. I'm thankful. Honestly it's fuckin 3am and I'm tired from staying up till 5am messaging people to ensure I'm safe. Fact of the matter is the girl gang alliance FINALLY compared notes and got back on the same page. DW won HOH which got me to screaming. What's so important in this game to tell where ppl's loyalties are is how quickly you get those room notifications. DW went to girl gang so I know it was legit. She nominates Pedro and Russell (I really did try and not get Pedro nominated) and HUNTY everything was coming out! The 10 turned on each other SO quickly and lost it once they hit the block. For my game, this is EXACTLY what I needed. All eyes are on them, no one is thinking about little ol me, it was made clear that I was not a part of this alliance and that has given me more options, and Pedro is now spilling EVERYTHING. Again what's so crazy to me is that there's so many conversations about alliances and side alliances and NO ONE is suspecting the Girl Gang. I really am confused about everything going on. We about to have two quits and a drop because WHERE THE I want to lick you IS HARLEY!? Two sides are about to go to war, and I have a front row view. Last night was rough, but this was the 180 I needed in this game. How many children are playing this game? If I haven't said so already, my head hurts.

-CVB

P.S. Thank you for putting this on Arisa and deciding not to cancel. Was season 1 this wild? I know once this is over I'm going to have a FIELD DAY going through all these damn threads.

Season 1 was wild for other reasons. This was pretty fun till tonight

Night 6.

Welp...the blowout from these tokens have continued. Before tonight's HOH, we had two people removed and one person leave for personal reasons bringing us down to 14 left. Again continuing to do my politicking, messaging ppl, forming connections and stuff. I'm in a pretty good spot. No one is checking for me because SO much attention is on this big alliance and them turning on each other. Let's keep that energy moving forward. HOH is here, and it's actually one where I felt confident to begin with and was like this is it. I lost by TWO SECONDS! But it's ok because Buffy wins. Yay girl gang lol. She's put ups Kway and Pedro. Not ideal for me personally, but she says Kways her target. She makes it very clear Kway is her target. It's all great. They don't win veto so either one of them is going home. Pedro, Pedro, Pedro...he is literally tanking his own game. All he needed to do was just sit there and eat his fuckin food. Showed too much strategic prowess to the HOH and now she is about to work hard to flip this vote on you. I wanted to give him a warning message, I really did, but that could potentially ruin my game because he would then panic and who knows what else he would be saying in DMs. Maybe I would of if he wasn't talking to me crazy and questioning my loyalty. I mean...yea Girl Gang over Pedro, but still I did talk to you A LOT. How is this vote going to go? Idk. I really do hope that its Kway that leaves, because that would mean Pedro will make it to jury (assuming after this vote jury begins), and then that should be a solid vote for myself. Speaking of jury, I love that I am a part of girl gang, but as I think more and more about it, I think it would be best if I don't sit next to one at the end. The problem is that there are some ppl I really don't have a connection to. Natalie, Spongebob, BTB, Aaron. I need to be better at that. Also I want to lick you Daenerys. I haven't forgotten bitch lol. I've been thinking if I message her to figure out what happened or if I just let it go. If there's one thing I do know, is that I'm about to throw some comps. It was known that I was that 3rd HOH, then I almost won this one by 2 seconds. I don't need people entertaining the thought of me as a comp beast. I think I'm in a good place socially with the house that I should be ok. Let's see what happens from here. What I will do tonight though...is enjoy a good night's sleep.

-CVB

P.S. Thank you Arisa for now allowing screenshots. I was PANICKING! I know you read my diaries, and people being able to screenshot what I say would be a killer. Atleast with copy and paste I could always said that was made up lol.

Night 7.

Pedro’s gone and I’m trying to stay up till 9 to match last seasons time. That’s it. That’s the post.

-CVB

Night 8.

I have one thing on my mind...WHEN THE I want to lick you IS JURY!?

Ok honestly, today was simple. Aaron won the HOH which I honestly have to give major props to because he was on EST which was a HUGE disadvantage imo. I'm also clearly a grandpa. My gosh. He wanted a simple HOH so he nominated Natalie and Bob. Both those names don't sound like Cameron so I am happy.

I think moving forward, Jim is going to be my new Pedro, and I think I want to move forward with Villanelle to be the final 2. We're both the elders, and again, she trusts me. She asked me what I should do with the veto she won. That's power. Don't get me wrong, Girl Gang is AWESOME! I really do love them, but as I see my path moving forward, it just doesn't seem like sticking with them is the best for MY game to get the win. But as we keep on getting down in numbers, I don't see how I make a move against them with support from others. And don't get me started with whatever twist could be coming our way. That eviction buy back increased the pool by $150. I just don't know how to play this alliance. I'm safe tonight. Let's get this HOH tomorrow. I WANT DAENERYS OUT!!!!!!!

-CVB

Night 9.

Smooth week. Jim isn’t biting too hard to my weak attempts at a showmance, but I think he trust me so he’s a keeper. My girl villanelle with 2 vetos! Am I ever gonna win a comp? I hope so lol. So funny I was staying up for the HOH and took a whole NAP! Woke up at 8:50. Wasn’t gonna win anyways. Buffy wins though! Second HOH of the season. Kway and Natalie are on the block and this is probably the first time Girl Gang is NOT in agreeance with this vote. As I go to sleep, I’m leaning towards keeping Kway which is shocking. Buffy nominated him not once, but TWICE. It’s clearly personal. Why nominate him if he ain’t gonna go home? I think whoever survives this though becomes the official pawn. Let’s see what happens tomorrow with these comps. Also, I’m happy that I won us some money for the overall pool that I’m going to win. Let’s keep the eye on the prize, but I just can’t rely on my social skills. Please announce that we’re in Jury Arisa. It will be 11 at that point. Give us some good news!

-CVB

Night 10.

And I’m going to be in the Final 10. YAY!! Who would of thought I would of made it to this point when we started with 22 houseguest! As we enter this second half of the game, I feel like my social game is going to be KEY! I am a little nervous because chats have been VERY QUIET. Villanelle won HOH which is awesome! I’m glad I started talked to her and that we formed something lol. Because atleast with me she was RADIO SILENT. I messaged Jim twice and he just got back to me. And I’m looking at the bottom and I see all these f*ckers online meaning they must be talking to others. Welp girl gang is officially done. Because ppl wanna make the key 3. Villanelle must of sniffed it which is why she put up Big T and Syd. Talking to everyone, no one knows what to do or how to vote. I know where I will probably vote tomorrow. Bye Big T. In terms of my path forward, idk what to do at this point. I feel like everyone is playing for themselves. In the midst of chaos, something being seen as someone stable can be the best strategy, and that is what I need to keep on playing up. If comp wins are playing offense, then my social game is defense and maybe in this wild season, defense can take home the W. Let’s make it happen to get to 9. Can I get a puzzle or math problem for HOH? Can it be announced that we made it jury? I’m not asking for much right? Lol

-CVB

Night 11

When I wanted to play this game, I wanted to play up my social game, work both sides, and win comps. I did a good job with that. But I was finally forced to choose a side. All good things must come to an end, but the ending of Girl Group has created a clear divide. It’s essentially Buffy vs DW and it’s time to figure out who’s side is with who. I voted out Big T over Syd because I was closer to her, but I had no clue that would mean I’m all of a sudden so tight with Buffy, but that was how it seemed to the new HOH DW. That was a result I did NOT want to happen. And on top of that, everyone is out here using their advantages on others! Buffy used her hazmat suit to save Villanelle. Then Aaron used his immunity to protect Buffy from DWs wrath. Then Aaron won veto to protect himself. From a spectator that was probably a game winning move, but unfortunately we’re at final 11 and there’s A LOT of game left to play, especially with the jury buy back coming on Friday. I also almost got nominated as a replacement. But I’m thankful DW was willing to listen to me, and Jim was advocating save me as well. Even if that meant Syd got put up against Spongebob. Let’s get through tomorrow so I can officially make jury. But if I have one objective tomorrow, it’s to get Daenerys the I want to lick you on out of here! Her making it to jury is definitely not good for my overall game. Too bad we haven’t communicated. I hope after it’s all over we can be cool.

-CVB

Night 12.

JURY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well...it isn't confirmed, but with the assumed battle back happening this weekend it would mean jury, and honestly the 8 that remain f*ckin deserve. This has been a f*ckin 2 weeks to get to this point. To keep my current thoughts brief. It's between DW and Daenerys to evict. CAN THE CHURCH SAY AMEN!? I can't go to sleep so confidently though. Apparently it will be Me, Jim, Villanelle, and Natalie to evict Daenerys. If that is the case, then I will be ESTATIC!! I think it makes sense not even just personally, but game wise as well. I'm glad Jim and I are working together. He seems like the real deal. But I am not holding my breath until I see those f*ckin votes tomorrow lol. It's so fascinating how inconsistent I am regarding how good of a game I am playing. Today was a nice validation that my social game is going pretty well. Aaron asked me to protect Buffy once he gets evicted. That is WILD! I think that also good jury management! And if I can get him on the jury early that means he will be rooting for me as the jury is starting to form. Things to think about lol. Well tomorrow is going to truly tell me who I can trust in this game. I'm hoping for the best.

-CVB

P.S. Arisa. In no way shape or form and I here to critique your game, and I may be speaking out of frustration for my poor performance in these challenges, but where are the crapshoot/luck based challenges? Maybe it's because this is my first time playing, but it has been internally frustrating with so many things being time based when computer speeds are different and we may see the notification of the challenge/veto question at different times. It would be nice if the veto players were maybe done by randomizer and the HOH and 2 noms picks a number? It could also be nice for an HOH to just have us pick a number between like 1-100 where closest to the number would win. Or maybe it's like a 2 hour frame to get the highest score on online tetris? Who knows lol. Aaron has won 3 veto's in a row, and Buffy has won 3 HOHs. Very impressive, but it's kind of deteriorating my emotional spirit and if I am correct with Dany leaving tomorrow, DW was kept simply because the sense I get is that none of us will ever be able to compete with them. Please do what you want with this information. But you need some assistance with these challenges, I am definitely down to help for future seasons lol

Night 13.

Still processing this battle back. Will write more for night 14

-CVB