Genuine thoughts on the final 3 (NO BITS)

My DR is filled with sarcasm and jokes, it still has truth in it, but I wanted to post something going into the final night of challenges that was sincere and genuine and a way to help me sort through my thoughts.

I have so many regrets in this game from throwing challenges that I know I could've won because I completed them before the time code that the eventual winners of the challenges had to not talking to certain people enough that I ended up needing down the road. Nothing irks me more than losing HOH by 1 second on the night of my eviction, the night where I was planning on making my long awaited strike on Buffy/Aaron. I guess it's what I deserve for waiting too long, but I still have no regrets with waiting, I think if I had done it earlier it would've been bad for me.

This is an interesting final 3 and depending on who ends up making it to the final 2, my mind is very much not made up on how I'm going to vote as a juror.

Regardless of how much shit I talked about Aaron in my DR and the jury house, I feel bad that he was evicted in the way he was. Losing the most important POV of the season in a luck challenge to me is a total joke and if I was in that position, I would be far more livid and angered than how he reacted. Putting in tons of work in challenges is something I can relate to and losing at the end like that in such a crapshoot challenge is something I hate to see.

If Buffy makes it to the final 2, I have a hard time imagining either Jim or DW making a compelling case on why they deserve to win over her. I would have to be completely blown away. They would have to turn into a Gregory Peck in To Kill a Mockingbird type level of impressive to make me even consider voting for them over Buffy.

That being said, I think DW and Jim both know this and I'm pretty certain if one of them manages to win final HOH they will not take Buffy. Which will be bittersweet to me because I think Buffy is clearly the most deserving player to win, by an absolute mile.

If the final 2 is DW and Jim, my vote is completely and utterly open for grabs. I think DW probably has an edge if I had to predict who had the best chance to win of the two, but for me, I'm completely openminded. I had a good relationship with Jim in this game, I have no idea how much of it was genuine or not. I'd love to hear from him if he's at the end and find out more about how he looked at our relationship and how serious he took me.

DW and I have had a weird game dynamic and we kind of only talked to each other when we really needed to. DW didn't seem to have much interest in working with me and only talked to me when she had something to gain.

I think my main problem with DW and Jim, is that they waited way too long and but way too much at risk for allowing both Buffy and Aaron to make it to the final 4. But I have to keep reminding myself to put myself in their shoes. I'm more flippant and risky when it comes to gameplay and I can understand if you aren't that great at challenges, the need to tread lightly is higher. But damn, as someone who is good at challenges, it's really hard to watch.

There's a pretty good chance Buffy is making it to the final 2, and if it's with Jim or DW, I will probably make the argument to them that I would rather take chances earlier in the game and get 9th, 8th, or 7th place than be in the final 2 in a situation where it was almost impossible to win because you didn't take out the biggest threat to win the game. DW had HOH after the DPOV already expired and didn't take the shot when she had the chance. Very very very frustrating to see. It's better take that shot and if it goes wrong then at least you can say you tried. But I guess there's a genuine reason to try for 2nd place because of the money? Ugh who knows lol.