Okay so I feel AWFUL about planting the seeds against Layla but I just could not breathe with her here. Granted, I did NOT see anyone taking a shot anytime soon I figured the seed would grow over the next few weeks. Not the next damn day??? Lol wtf. I honestly did want her to stay longer bc now we still have the issue of Keesha/Carly/Blair/Haleigh and with Carly using her HoH tonight, my side will for sure take a hit. Anyways, yesterday I was feeling some type of way because it was clear that Tyler knew what was going on and was hesitant to let me in on the plan. We ended up talking about it in pms so I guess I’ll explain it to y’all here since y’all didn’t see it lol . Layla/Susie believed that Sandra or Celine won the comp due to Susie being up against Layla and not me. And honestly it makes sense. Im not sure who tf other than Sandra would do that......except Audrey. Now the Audrey speculation came to me right off bat. It’s a very calculate move. I believe Tyler and her worked together on the comp, with me also indirectly helping since I gave him an emoji picture. She won and then made the move me and Tyler had already discussed. Tyler is so transparent though. Which is why I asked him did he trust me. He knew right off bat that I didn’t need to use the idol. He wasn’t worried at all and he kept disappearing to go game. Whenever he does that I know it’s bc he’s talking game with Audrey or Sandra. So my feelings were a little hurt because Im snaking one of my closest friends for you. His excuse was that he didn’t want me involved in the mess it would cause and that he wanted to be the bad guy for both of us to protect me. Which is nice but mmmmm. I need him to actually trust me completely. Im being greedy bc I know he trusts me maybe 98% lol. But that other 2% for sure showed itself last night. I wasn’t even mad, I was mostly hurt and in my feelings. But he’s adorable so we talked it out lol.
So Layla leaves and now Im like okay, it’s basically a new game and we’re in the home stretch. The issue though? Carly plans to use her automatic HoH tonight and I can see her taking a shot at me. Since she told Tyler about it, I seriously doubt she is targeting him. Which means she’s probably not targeting Audrey either. So I’ll use my idol as soon as it’s announced. Or I may wait and talk to her to see what vibes she gives me. But considering she told Susie and Layla that she’s going after big targets and she is with Tyler, I see me and Sandra as possible targets. So I guess I’ll be using my safety net lol.
I’m making these people pick a side. If I don’t have 6 votes I know exactly who tf is to blame. I should have 4 at the very least but if it’s a tie then I know Im gon snap on these people. Daphne better not be playing with me chile.
The way Im not going to take this comp serious LMFAOOO. Bitch I think the fuckk not! Hopefully Tyler or Audrey can pull out the win. But just my luck Haleigh wins the shit lol. I'll start it later though. Maybe. I guess I can do a dr while Im here.
Whew chile. This night was a MESS. I always wondered why Tyler refused to throw Celine on the block and I had a suspicion he was close to her but chile after he told me she knew about his double vote, I was ready to cuss his ass out! Like sir you deadass right now?? I know he's got other allies, and that's fine bc I do too but to tell regular ass allies about your power?? I had to take a little breather from the forum atp because I felt like damn, I just snaked two people Im close to ( Layla and Susie) for you. Anyways we talked that situation out mostly in pm. Cz I know y'all nosy asses be reading the room and some stuff gotten stay hidden LOL. We had just made up when Celine was evicted and made her speech. Like JUST made up and her speech pissed me off all over again. Sis was telling the complete and whole truth and I was shook asf. It has to be the best evicted speech of the SERIES because she dragged all our asses lmaoooo. I was still pissed off at Tyler though. I was weighing between actually turning up on him or trying to play it cool. I decided to play it cool and ask question but it was clear my energy was off. We kinda talked about this in the room but it was mostly another pm convo lol. I realized then I was tripping. Like it was no longer just gameplay and I needed get it together. He thinks I've been distant with him since then, when honestly the truth is that I have a boo LMAOOO. I've been delivert from whatever emotional connections I had with him so it's kind of hard trying to keep up apperances. Up until a few days ago, every baby was real from me. Now it's like damn, If I stop he'll notice. Im hoping that me using my idol on him gets us out of this weird place.
Idol Play
After all the shit that has happened and my focus being on E*****, the game is less stressful for me. Like before it felt like do or die to win this season. And chile, I still want to win but it's literally not my main focus as of now. I'm dealing with *possibly* having the rona (A sis gets tested Tuesday) and being in the honey moon stage with someone lol. This last week has been so hard on me, that I really would rather lose and be in jury than play without Tyler. Right now Im just lacking the drive to really decide to take control of the game on my own. In a way im dependent on him. My game revolves around him now. When Daphne told me he was going up and he also told me she basically told him that, I knew then that I was using my idol on him. I know that today I could be chilling, knowing I would be safe regardless, but I feel at peace with my decision. It's me and him....with AOC until the very end lol. My dream final 3 is him, me, and AOC. I would take AOC if it was up to me in case anyone was wondering.
Using my idol on Tyler was also a good game move for me, I believe. Technically I won't find out if it was until we know who wins the HoH for this comp and noms, but I do think it was a good move. I saved Tyler, Sandra saved herself, and the four stays intact. I also very clearly got loyalty points from Audrey so I know those two will always have my back. I HATED that AOC went up and I think Daphne was a dummy for doing that but it woke AOC up and it showed our side of the house not to trust her. Keesha should have went up. It's the easiest nom ever, especially since blair was the target anyway. Keesha hasn't won shit so why be scared to put her up? The truth is that she overaligned and knew putting up Keesha would lose her allies on the other side. But in doing so she lost the allies on this side even more. I can't save Daphne. She really fuckked up that HoH...all thanks to my idol play LMAOOO.
SN: AOC having the DPOV is great! It gives us a little leeway to make some moves. I just realized that we really are in the home stretch and I will for sure have to piss off people I like to make it far. My loyalty is to Tyler/AOC/Audrey. The CAATS alliance is the one im riding until the end.
I think Tyler thinks Im dumb. He def gave Carly the answers I gave him. It’s whatever cz a BITCH TESTED NEGATIVE FOR COVID SO IM GETTING HIGH Im also about to snake tf outta Daphne. Ima blame it on this edible though.
Methinks they bout to make a move against AOC. But im not sure lol. They (Audrey/Tyler) are being pretty quiet right now so it's making me uneasy but whatever. Im too busy caking on ft right now lmfaoooo
Subject: Re: Dairy Room Entries 
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Celine really draggedt chile, I love it 
