Final 2

Ok, to finally answer Villanelle's questions:

First of all, thank you so much. You don't have to apologize to me at all lmao. I wasn't so much campaigning against you and I was campaigning for Cameron because I had a close relationship with her. Also, to me, you were the scariest person in the game. You were amazing at competitions and I could never really read you, which is a compliment to your game. Also, at that point I had just aligned with Buffy and Aaron and we as a group wanted you out so I just wanted to make it happen. It was never personal in the slightest. 

It makes me really sad that you didn't think I wanted to associate with you unless you had won. I know we didn't talk all the time, but I honestly wanted to have a friendship with you from day 1 and we talked here and there from the beginning. I actually did request a private room for us and we never got it for several days and I had to request it again, you can take that up with Arisa LMAO because I swear... If you think I didn't want to talk to you because we didn't get a private room until way late, please know I genuinely tried! I was always completely candid and honest with you too whenever we talked. I think the timing was just off for us. I was trying to convince you to go against Buffy and Aaron like I was at the time, and when I didn't think I could convince you I figured you were completely with them. Then I ended up alone and decided to align with them and we wanted to get you out bc you were such a threat.

I genuinely really like you as a person and a player. I thought you were a badass and we were like-minded. I had this whole scenario in my head where you and I would defeat Buffy and Aaron and sit in the final 2 together lol, no joke. I honestly think it was just a matter of bad timing and miscommunication, which is so unfortunate. I definitely made a mistake in not talking to you more consistently from the beginning. There was nothing you did wrong and you were definitely one of the most interesting people in the game. You deserved better in this game girl and I'm sorry. If we had come together and gotten on the same page just a couple days sooner, things probably would've been really different. I hope you can understand why I make the choices I did girl and I hope you can respect my game. <3

Congrats you two. It should be no surprise, I've been "lurking" in the background the whole time. IRL, Amy, Kway, and I figured out who one another was on twitter; go figure and we've been watching and talking. BOTH of you deserve to be final 2. And yes, Buffy, you figured out to cut loose when you did. I'd figured out Aaron and Buffy very early simply by watching who was online at 3 am. If it was those two and me, and nobody was posting or talking to me... I called out Buffy and poof, the Ice Queen emerged. DW, you were right to put us (Pedro and me) up. So Kudos to both of you. Jury, great questions.

Only regret? I had sent a final message to Arisa to post on my behalf and it never made it. Readers Digest? I told her you were all upstanding folks and did not use any of the language i referenced. Those were terms I'd faced growing up so I was very sensitized to anything related to them real or imagined. Diary rooms will show that I had two survival moves...Dans Funeral when Sad Russell appeared and Johnny Fairplay with ADHD. Problem was I do have it and so does my son (medicated with focalin). It got too real and set it all off. So, I apologize for that. In the end, it made for an online game equal or better than many IRL seasons. YOU all did a fantastic job! Arisa, thank you.

See you in Twitter DMs in a bit Amy

Russell Brand wrote:

Congrats you two. It should be no surprise, I've been "lurking" in the background the whole time. IRL, Amy, Kway, and I figured out who one another was on twitter; go figure and we've been watching and talking.  BOTH of you deserve to be final 2. And yes, Buffy, you figured out to cut loose when you did. I'd figured out Aaron and Buffy very early simply by watching who was online at 3 am.  If it was those two and me, and nobody was posting or talking to me... I called out Buffy and poof, the Ice Queen emerged. DW, you were right to put us (Pedro and me) up. So Kudos to both of you.  Jury, great questions.

Only regret?  I had sent a final message to Arisa to post on my behalf and it never made it. Readers Digest? I told her you were all upstanding folks and did not use any of the language i referenced. Those were terms I'd faced growing up so I was very sensitized to anything related to them real or imagined. Diary rooms will show that I had two survival moves...Dans Funeral when Sad Russell appeared and Johnny Fairplay with ADHD.  Problem was I do have it and so does my son (medicated with focalin). It got too real and set it all off.  So, I apologize for that. In the end, it made for an online game equal or better than many IRL seasons. YOU all did a fantastic job!  Arisa, thank you.

See you in Twitter DMs in a bit Amy

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Russell Brand wrote:

Congrats you two. It should be no surprise, I've been "lurking" in the background the whole time. IRL, Amy, Kway, and I figured out who one another was on twitter; go figure and we've been watching and talking.  BOTH of you deserve to be final 2. And yes, Buffy, you figured out to cut loose when you did. I'd figured out Aaron and Buffy very early simply by watching who was online at 3 am.  If it was those two and me, and nobody was posting or talking to me... I called out Buffy and poof, the Ice Queen emerged. DW, you were right to put us (Pedro and me) up. So Kudos to both of you.  Jury, great questions.

Only regret?  I had sent a final message to Arisa to post on my behalf and it never made it. Readers Digest? I told her you were all upstanding folks and did not use any of the language i referenced. Those were terms I'd faced growing up so I was very sensitized to anything related to them real or imagined. Diary rooms will show that I had two survival moves...Dans Funeral when Sad Russell appeared and Johnny Fairplay with ADHD.  Problem was I do have it and so does my son (medicated with focalin). It got too real and set it all off.  So, I apologize for that. In the end, it made for an online game equal or better than many IRL seasons. YOU all did a fantastic job!  Arisa, thank you.

See you in Twitter DMs in a bit Amy

I can't wait for Kway to read my DR's and my comments in the JURY HOUSE about him.

Russell Brand wrote:

Congrats you two. It should be no surprise, I've been "lurking" in the background the whole time. IRL, Amy, Kway, and I figured out who one another was on twitter; go figure and we've been watching and talking.  BOTH of you deserve to be final 2. And yes, Buffy, you figured out to cut loose when you did. I'd figured out Aaron and Buffy very early simply by watching who was online at 3 am.  If it was those two and me, and nobody was posting or talking to me... I called out Buffy and poof, the Ice Queen emerged. DW, you were right to put us (Pedro and me) up. So Kudos to both of you.  Jury, great questions.

Only regret?  I had sent a final message to Arisa to post on my behalf and it never made it. Readers Digest? I told her you were all upstanding folks and did not use any of the language i referenced. Those were terms I'd faced growing up so I was very sensitized to anything related to them real or imagined. Diary rooms will show that I had two survival moves...Dans Funeral when Sad Russell appeared and Johnny Fairplay with ADHD.  Problem was I do have it and so does my son (medicated with focalin). It got too real and set it all off.  So, I apologize for that. In the end, it made for an online game equal or better than many IRL seasons. YOU all did a fantastic job!  Arisa, thank you.

See you in Twitter DMs in a bit Amy

Russell!!!

Russell Brand wrote:

Congrats you two. It should be no surprise, I've been "lurking" in the background the whole time. IRL, Amy, Kway, and I figured out who one another was on twitter; go figure and we've been watching and talking.  BOTH of you deserve to be final 2. And yes, Buffy, you figured out to cut loose when you did. I'd figured out Aaron and Buffy very early simply by watching who was online at 3 am.  If it was those two and me, and nobody was posting or talking to me... I called out Buffy and poof, the Ice Queen emerged. DW, you were right to put us (Pedro and me) up. So Kudos to both of you.  Jury, great questions.

Only regret?  I had sent a final message to Arisa to post on my behalf and it never made it. Readers Digest? I told her you were all upstanding folks and did not use any of the language i referenced. Those were terms I'd faced growing up so I was very sensitized to anything related to them real or imagined. Diary rooms will show that I had two survival moves...Dans Funeral when Sad Russell appeared and Johnny Fairplay with ADHD.  Problem was I do have it and so does my son (medicated with focalin). It got too real and set it all off.  So, I apologize for that. In the end, it made for an online game equal or better than many IRL seasons. YOU all did a fantastic job!  Arisa, thank you.

See you in Twitter DMs in a bit Amy

Aw Russell thank you so much, it's so good to hear from you. <3 I never wanted to hurt you and I'm so glad you understand. It killed me to think I really offended you. I wish you nothing but the best!

I wish i was in the jury house

Hey Russell and Amy! Can't wait to see who you all are at the reveal! <3

Jim Halpert wrote:

I wish i was in the jury house

Maybe tomorrow? I hope you have time to read it all lol

Russell Brand wrote:

Congrats you two. It should be no surprise, I've been "lurking" in the background the whole time. IRL, Amy, Kway, and I figured out who one another was on twitter; go figure and we've been watching and talking.  BOTH of you deserve to be final 2. And yes, Buffy, you figured out to cut loose when you did. I'd figured out Aaron and Buffy very early simply by watching who was online at 3 am.  If it was those two and me, and nobody was posting or talking to me... I called out Buffy and poof, the Ice Queen emerged. DW, you were right to put us (Pedro and me) up. So Kudos to both of you.  Jury, great questions.

Only regret?  I had sent a final message to Arisa to post on my behalf and it never made it. Readers Digest? I told her you were all upstanding folks and did not use any of the language i referenced. Those were terms I'd faced growing up so I was very sensitized to anything related to them real or imagined. Diary rooms will show that I had two survival moves...Dans Funeral when Sad Russell appeared and Johnny Fairplay with ADHD.  Problem was I do have it and so does my son (medicated with focalin). It got too real and set it all off.  So, I apologize for that. In the end, it made for an online game equal or better than many IRL seasons. YOU all did a fantastic job!  Arisa, thank you.

See you in Twitter DMs in a bit Amy

Miss you Russell!

Ok now to answer Jim's question:

Throwing the part 3 HOH worked in my favor only because I am here in the final 2. I knew Buffy already had at least 2 votes solidified, but I thought it would work in my favor that she would choose to take me to the end when she likely had an easier win over you. I was fucking shaking waiting to hear her decision because if she had lied and wasn't taking me, it was all for nothing. It was definitely a risk, and I knew that. But I've been taking risks all game. If I had won I would've taken you to the end, maybe I would've had better chances but there's a chance I'd lose against you too, nothing is certain. I also knew that if I evicted Buffy at the final 3, she would be extremely upset, never talk to me again, and possibly turn the whole jury against me. I thought it best to sit next to her in final 2, but only if she was the one to choose. If I had won and taken Buffy to sit with me in the final 2, ya'll would have laughed in my face and it would've been the stupidest decision ever. However, I think Buffy being convinced to take me shows my gameplay. I hope you understand!

DW wrote:

Ok, to finally answer Villanelle's questions:

First of all, thank you so much. You don't have to apologize to me at all lmao. I wasn't so much campaigning against you and I was campaigning for Cameron because I had a close relationship with her. Also, to me, you were the scariest person in the game. You were amazing at competitions and I could never really read you, which is a compliment to your game. Also, at that point I had just aligned with Buffy and Aaron and we as a group wanted you out so I just wanted to make it happen. It was never personal in the slightest. 

It makes me really sad that you didn't think I wanted to associate with you unless you had won. I know we didn't talk all the time, but I honestly wanted to have a friendship with you from day 1 and we talked here and there from the beginning. I actually did request a private room for us and we never got it for several days and I had to request it again, you can take that up with Arisa LMAO because I swear... If you think I didn't want to talk to you because we didn't get a private room until way late, please know I genuinely tried! I was always completely candid and honest with you too whenever we talked. I think the timing was just off for us. I was trying to convince you to go against Buffy and Aaron like I was at the time, and when I didn't think I could convince you I figured you were completely with them. Then I ended up alone and decided to align with them and we wanted to get you out bc you were such a threat.

I genuinely really like you as a person and a player. I thought you were a badass and we were like-minded. I had this whole scenario in my head where you and I would defeat Buffy and Aaron and sit in the final 2 together lol, no joke. I honestly think it was just a matter of bad timing and miscommunication, which is so unfortunate. I definitely made a mistake in not talking to you more consistently from the beginning. There was nothing you did wrong and you were definitely one of the most interesting people in the game. You deserved better in this game girl and I'm sorry. If we had come together and gotten on the same page just a couple days sooner, things probably would've been really different. I hope you can understand why I make the choices I did girl and I hope you can respect my game. <3

I respect the answer and I completely understand where you are coming from. From my perspective, the reason why I was getting so frustrated with you was because of how both of our timing for things didn't align.

I understand the philosophy "if you can't beat them, join them." But honestly, I know you found Pedro untrustworthy after he told me things you were saying. It's unfortunate you felt alone, because when you agreed to get rid of me and go with Buffy's desire there, you completely got rid of someone that was ready to go after them. Pedro was ready to fight as well, along with Natalie. There were options at your disposal. They were all swiftly eliminated and everyone was beholden to the power of Buffy and Aaron and it only took a luck challenge at final POV to get at least one of them out. Once all of their actual threats were gone, it seemed like everyone had such a defeatist, scared outlook on the game in regards to going after Buffy and Aaron.

I wish I had figured out a way to fight harder to convince you that there were more options than just boxing yourself in a situation where you have to go so deep into the game with THREAT #1 Buffy Summers, possibly the worst case scenario for anyone to go head to head with.

Ok answering Cameron's questions now and I believe those are the last ones for me. Am I missing any?

No, i do understand because although I didnt throw anything (it was just not the right timing for an endurance and I truly did mess up with the part 2 like i had explained), i felt that exact same way for myself.

Cameron Van Buren wrote:

Ok Buffy, here are my specific questions for you...

1) In your opening speech, you described your game as “defensive”. How is winning 5 HOH’s, 1 Veto, a DPOV, and a luxury competition to secure an extra jury vote defensive? If your game is considered defense, what would an offensive game look like?

2) From your perspective, why did you think you were target #1 and viewed as a villain?

3) You mentioned in my first set of questions that you needed to “get her (referencing DW) out of your hair” but you chose to bring her to Final 2. What do you think your chances are against her?

4) As I have learned in jury, it was you that set the gameplan in motion to sabotage me from winning the tokens HOH. I am aware that you told Dany that this is an HOH you shouldn’t win. Why wasn’t I given the same advice? And why did you work so hard to sabotage me so that I can go over? Was there strategy involved there with only 3 days of gameplay and we were in an alliance together?

5) Why tell me that you were going to keep me pre-veto and then tell me you were going to evict me post veto? You specifically said the jury told you that I started the alliance against you when you got to visit them and that’s why I needed to be evicted. They said they don’t remember that. What’s the truth?

6) I will say I was really disappointed to see some of your actions which I deemed unnecessary from your position. I was told by the jury you called me "Borrowed Time" and to see how you reacted to Natalie during her eviction throughout the game was cringey for me to watch. I find it hard to blame it on your passion for the game when with a forum like this, you have to deliberately type that and ensure that we see it. Can you talk a little bit about this? And what is borrowed time tbh? lol

7) Can you go into detail about your relationship with Aaron and how he played a role in getting you to the Final 2?

8) What is it about you that people in this game was prepared to bring you to the end and lose?

*subject to ask more questions lol*

1. It's defensive in the way that it wasn't how I wanted to play the game. I wanted to lay low, but once my name got thrown around, I had to win at certain times. It would be silly for me to throw HOHs once I was exposed, but I did relinquish control when I knew I could and I still did not get taken out. An offensive game would have been me relying on my social game to plant seeds of doubt in people's minds about other players. I had a keen sense for who was being sketchy and I would have played up my skills in that respect. 

2. I think I was targeted and made the villain because my name was thrown out there in the first few days, but I still found a way to avoid the block. The villain thing probable came from the fact that I can be an absolute asshole at times and I did enjoy evicting certain people. 

3. I don't think it's as easy as it would have been against Jim (no offense intended), but I was honest in my final reasoning for bringing her to Final 2. I may be a bitch at times, but I can be really soft, even to my own detriment.

4. I didn't give you the same advice about the fire tokens because I had a stronger bond with Dany. I knew it would get too messy if I warned you too. It was less about taking the win from you and more about giving the win to Russell because I was interested in the playing the game with him initially. I wanted to lay low and control the game and he was on my same wavelength at the time. 

5. I was not sure if I was going to evict you pre-veto because I was weighing the options of whether or not you would work with me in a way that would benefit me. When you stayed on the block, I realized if you stayed, you could gain traction in building something against me. And yes, I specifically asked if you made the alliance and I was told you did. But they also told me they could be lying. I decided to not risk it 

6. I have a very strong personality, which doesn't work well online without a series of hearts and lols. I never meant to be a jerk to anyone, but I was honestly just trying to play the part of villain after a while. It never was intended to cause actual hurt. The borrowed time comment was just me strategizing and saying your days were numbered. Nothing actually against you at all. 

7. Aaron started out as someone I just wanted to work with peripherally. But within a couple days, we ended up talking a ton and he started divulging info that he wouldn't have if I wasn't endgame. Aaron's role in final 2 was as my partner. Sure, I was the one that called the majority of the shots, but when he was adamant about something, I respected it. Aaron made my game life happier and easier to stomach. Once he used that idol on me, there was no way anyone was taking his spot. Aaron made life easier, but by no means would this be different without him. I would have found a way to stay in this game regardless of the deals I had to make. 

I feel like I just took a final lmao