Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen

So last night was definitely an interesting one. I have no idea what’s going on with the vote or what people plan to do. I told Christian that we need to get Skeeter back on his side, mostly for my game to be salvaged. I would rather someone like Skeeter stay in the game over Madison who sends these ugly cryptic campaign messages or Red Fraggle who cracks me the fvck up but does nothing otherwise. I don’t see the point of two of my potential allies getting the boot over someone I don’t talk to. That being said, if Skeeter happens to get the boot over no fault of my own, I wouldn’t say it’s the worst thing to happen, especially since he’s so likable to begin with. We haven’t spoken a ton of game and most of my interest stems from our personal conversation. But if he still somehow managed to get booted while I tried keeping him, well then my potential jury management skills are well preserved. I need to start practicing anyway. For whatever reason jury management tends to be my biggest issue in this series, and understandably so. I’m not exactly as honest or sneaky as I used to be. I tend to be a lot messier in games now, and while I would like to say it’s intentional, the statistics don’t lie and I’ve been sloppy in virtually every game I played where I jumped into the drivers seat. It’s a combination of being bored, being excited, being rusty, etc. I am making an attempt this season, but it’s so hard when I find myself backed in a corner and I need to get out. Either way, whenever people exit a game they almost always express negative feelings towards me, and while I find it to be hilariously bitter, it does diminish my chances of winning. More often than not I’ll just sort of relish in their eliminations and dance on their graves. I’ll fuel the fire for sure and I’ll try to convince the remaining players that I’m the most hated, but for whatever reason it backfires and I still get the boot!! So I think Jackie is going to be different and be a lot more empathetic and be everyone’s friend. The longer I talk to people the more I realize how annoying they are but I’m doing what I can to keep up the charade. There’s just way too many people in the cast and it kills me to not have a room with all of them and not message them all at once!! Time will tell if this strategy works or not!! My only goal is to break past the final seven. For whatever unholy reason I can never do any better than that, and it’s always for the same reason. It would be nice to be able to place in the final six, but it would be nicer to place in the final two! Do I think I have decent jury questioning skills? I’m not sure. I tend to talk a lot and the jury may not love it, but I do think I can offer a logical argument regardless of the game I play, which is why I don’t care about messiness.

Speaking of, there’s something about Beast which both intrigues and frightens me. He is definitely way too connected with a good number of the cast and it amazes me that he was able to get a pulse on how they’re voting in such a short amount of time. I have a feeling I have to keep an eye on him in the long run, but as I’ve mentioned before, it’s way too early to worry about that now and this game is a marathon. Do I think he can keep up his momentum? I hope not. I want the target on his back to grow over time so when it is time for him to go, he can go. Would I take him out the first chance I get? Not necessarily. I do find some value in keeping in a big target when people are actively coming for them. It’ll definitely get me some brownie points with them and then hopefully add some years to my life. And then I can take them out when ~I~ want them gone, not when the house wants them gone.