Confessionals

This season is a full time job. Last time I only had one person to cater to. I had about 24 now.

*have ugh

I swear I follow almost everything with "In the most PG way" with the girls. I so don't want to be seen as a flirt. I don't want any of that this season.

Confessional for July 1st (222 words)


Today I got up and started this new full time job of talking to everyone for hours and hours and hours. At least now most of my conversations have moved to the private rooms. It's still annoying, but it's easier to keep track of. Sandra is really funny, I'm starting to bond with her more and more. Layla is someone that I have light conversations with but that I feel that will keep me safe if she is in power again. I really enjoy my little group of rejects but I'm a little worried about Carly. She seems like an odd one in the group. I hope she won't be our demise. Audrey too the HOH home for that alliance and I felt pretty safe with Susie as well. The only downfall to this round is that they will want Alycia out and I want Heather and Idris out. I will do my best to make it happen without it being pinned on me after. The goal is to get the guys to vote Heather with a few other people under the pretext that she wins a lot of challenges when she bothers to show up. I will then try to get the rejects alliance to vote Idris out. Let's see what happens. I'm semi hopeful yet not that worried about it.

Confessional for July 2nd (115 words)



Today I feel a lot of regrets for even joining. It's not that the concept isn't fun. It's just that it always seems to create some kind of drama in my life no matter what I do. It's also very time consuming because of so many players. I don't even know what happened with the votes last night. I assume Audrey isn't feeling great that the bigger threat in her nominations is still there. Losing Alycia wasn't good for me. I needed her here to win challenges and cause chaos lol. I also liked her, she was a fun girl. I don't really know how to navigate from here. Do I try for hoh tonight?

Confessional for July 3rd (147 words)


The host did warn that the next head of household would be a messy one. I thought she meant like the fire token from season 2, but no, it was just really long and all over the place for a while there at the beginning. Arisa did a great job, but probably too many people played the challenge. In the end I almost won too. I don't know if it was a good look for me to make top 4 in that challenge. Sure I stayed in a few rounds because I won the question, but I also stayed because people were picking me. It can give the impression that I'm well connected, which I feel like I am. Megan and Daphne come out victorious, I don't touch the block and now I can play in the next hoh. I'd say it's all in a days work.

"Today I feel a lot of regrets for even joining."

This made me sad

I just get in my head sometimes when the game gets emotionally tough and decisions get harder. I'm already over it/ You and Arisa are putting on a great show.

I have to re-align my ducks and start making a plan for this game. I'm happy so far that I've been able to play the first few rounds to the beat of my own drums. I don't owe anyone anything at this point. I vote how I want and I lie about it almost to everyone. It's very different from how I was last time. I was very upfront and direct with how I was voting and I didn't really go rogue. The challenge enthusiast in my wants to win, but it's probably better for me to wait until it's a single hoh run before I win another. I want Daphne out the most and she seems well connected. I need to put her up against someone that won't leave against her.

Another thing I forgot to mention. I don't know how they think they're fooling, but Keke, Carter and Layla picking each other every round was very sketch. It's not that they're not allowed to work together. It's how bold they were at showing it without a care for over 20 people seeing it.

I can't believe Dean is gone, with 9 vote on top of that. He did not deserve such treatment.

Sandra and I today

Confessional for July 4th


Happy Independence day everyone. I don't even know what to celebrate this year with everything going on, but I'll still wish it.


The game, it's really kicked up a notch since the hoh last night. In the moment it didn't really show any fracture, but as the day went on, you can tell that challenge did some damage. Sandra made a whole post with everything that happened. I was flabbergasted when I saw all that in our room lol. It got us talking game, talking about the different sides and our different targets. I don't know if I fully trust what she told me. She told me her short term target was Michael and then she didn't even put him up for eviction. I still think she was mostly truthful with me today though. I'm very much in the middle in this game. I'm sitting there with the likes of Celine, Haleigh, Carly, Sandra, Aubrey, etc. I want to stay close to Carter and Layla but I need to cut their allies before they become too powerful for me to take out when the time is necessary.

One thing I'm having a lot of fun with this time around is being rogue. I've white lied so much in this game about my vote. It's to the point where I don't even remember who got my real vote most of the time because I've lied about it to so many.

Yyaaasss embrace the snakey side