Confessionals

I should add that I was not even going to campaign to get her out last night, until she acted out in a few ways, including sending me a DM that really ticked me off. If you're going to use me, play me, do not act like you were so loyal and that I'm a monster. Own it because in the end, it's just a game and I would never take it to where it's been taken.

Now that Layla is gone, I need to really get to work to save my 3 main allies (Carter, Audrey and Sandra). They have my back and I have theirs as well. They talk to me about things, I talk back. They let me have a say without getting mad, so I butt out of their decisions. That's how allies work together in my opinion, but maybe I'm wrong.



Carly told me she has that instant HOH in not so many words and that she planned to use it tonight. My goals is to make her wait before using it. I need to convince her too many powers are circulating and that her HOH might not even turn out how she wants. Right now she's sitting pretty with others coming for each other. It's in her best interest to just stay there.

How do I get myself in these situations? To amp up the flirt or not? My gut tells me I'm flirting with someone that doesn't even like men. It feels like a safe zone, but the material is turning into something that makes me no longer sure.

What do you mean?

Confessional July 16th


I put myself in such a messy position in this game for the final stretch. Every vote will be hard, or almost every vote. I'm in 2 main alliances that I'm trying to stay loyal to. I have Celine, Carly, Audrey and Haleigh on one side and I have Carter, Sandra and Audrey on the other side. I hoped to come into this round and win HOH to keep both sides alive. I know it would have put me in hot water since both would have expected me to take a shot, but I could have tried to deal with that later. Now I have to evict Celine and it's really not what I want to do. I also stupidly told her I had a double vote yesterday when I was sucking up for being exposed, so of course now she wants me to use it on her. If I do that, Carter will know. Could I do it and blame it on someone else? Other double votes were bought I'm sure. 


I'd pick Carly over Celine if I had to, so at least there's a glass half full to this evening. I'm really torn how to vote.

Pros of keeping Celine
She doesn't expose Audrey and I being in Better room


Cons of keeping Celine
I can't say I have trusted her word in most votes
Will piss Carter off and she's my #1
Will keep a challenge thread in the house 



I trust Carter much more than Celine in terms of who is looking out for me and who wants to go far with me. That's really what's tipping the balance for me.

Pros of keeping Celine
I actually like her more than Blair

Confessional July 17th


Last night was a good night and a bad night. Started off on a high note when my final 2 got HOH. It meant I was safe, it meant I can play in the next one and it meant that I didn't have to get my hands dirty by winning HOH myself. I did try though. That fruit salad pissed me off. Challenges are my strength it seems like so it bruises my ego when I don't do well. I was hoping Carter would be in the mood for an easy HOH. Slap Blair and Keesha up there and call it a day. I would actually vote Keesha in that scenario because she scares me more than Blair. Turns out Carter isn't interested in the quiet HOH and she wants to go for Celine and Carly. Two allies I have been nurturing lately, putting in the time and effort. I wasn't doing it to go against Carter, I was doing it to keep us safe, which kind of worked the round before when Carly used her Instant HOH.

Celine asked me to share my veto answers with her which I did, but I made sure to send them to Carter and Carly first and wait a little. I like Celine but I don't really trust her so she was the one I needed gone out of the 2.

NOT THAT PICTURE AS YOUR PFP

Arisa must have done this to me. I'm innocent.

You made that your pfp because you know nobody can be mad at your or get you out with that picture. I see you

lol I swear it wasn't me. It even scared me when I saw the change yesterday. I'm leaving it there for the reasons you stated though.

Oh Arisa made it that?! Please lkfjsdfkls

Confessional July 18th



Celine went out with a major bang. She had reasons to be upset with me, but not to that degree. I have shared real information with her. I have tried to be loyal to her and keep her safe. I feel she has lied to me way more than I have lied to her in this game. The only reason I had to vote her out is because Carter is my #1 and it was her HOH. Had it been any other HOH, I would have probably used my power to save her.


I was really happy to get a night off. The smart thing would have been to stay on the forum and do damage control, but instead I actually took a mental break and even got a good night sleep. I felt ready for tonight, I felt ready to win HOH. I would put up Blair and Keesha with Keesha as the target. If she comes off, Daphne backdoor.


I start the HOH, I keep messing up the first post. I could not get a 1. My clock said 1, but it kept posting at 2. I tried when my clock said 0, then it posted as 0. It was so annoying. Even more annoying is that Daphne of all people is the one who win. She was my backdoor plan. I can't see her loving me much after the Celine speech exposing me exposing her. Confirmation came early with the way she replied in our room. I was prepared to go up until Carter told me she used her idol on me. I really can't believe she would do that for me. It's so different from my other experience in this series where it was me who was using idols on other people. I'm of course indebted to her now and will make sure to pay her back somehow.


I got worried because Sandra was put up on the block. I knew I couldn't win the veto because then I have Sandra expecting me to use it on her and Audrey/Carter expecting me to keep them the same so they don't go up. Ideally Sandra won it and Keesha went up. That almost happened but instead it's AOC. I guess Blair's time has finally come.

If i wasnt a flop and had powers i would have used them on you